if you feel too much.

This is not solely a sliver of hope but a call for help. Tonight, as I am alone in my bed, my thoughts are closing in on me and I am feeling defeat. Not defeat now, but defeat coming. It is a scary feeling to anticipate such a thing.

I have observed and taken note of many evil things in life. Recently, death, depression, pain, and sadness are themes that are controlling the life of the ones I deeply love and care about. I tossed and I turned and sobbed for help. Help for myself. Help for my dear friends. I am feeling it all.

Again, this is not a granted assurance that everything is okay. But rather, comfort in knowing it's okay I'm feeling this all.

If you feel too much, I have something to say.
I too am wrestling such fear day by day.
If you feel too much, do not run away.
Go towards Him in preparation to pray.
If you feel too much, you have nothing to fear.
Close your eyes and open your ears.
If you feel too much, listen instead.
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid," He said.
If you feel too much, you are not alone.
Join with others in knowing you aren't your own.
If you feel too much, resist temptation of looking ahead.
Today carries enough worries of its own He said.
If you feel too much, let it not be thoughts of sin.
Rest your head and feel love; evil does not win.

I'm here seeing the hard. I'm here until I see the better.