You know when you're sitting in the movie theatre, and then it suddenly hits you; the urge to pee. You don't want to miss the movie, but you also want to acknowledge the fact that you really have to go. Initially, you avoid it. But eventually, you know you can't ignore the overwhelming feeling.
That is this semester at the Missourian for me.
Yes, I know it sounds extremely odd to compare having to pee to reporting at the Missourian, but I'm going somewhere with this, I promise.
It seems typical to me now to go through the motions, or in other words, make it through a normal semester of college. It's fairly easy to prioritize your social life above what should be the main priority. One can still do pretty much anything they want, make their own curfew, barely commit to things and walk away still making it. This semester, however, is drastically different.
Working at the Missourian leaves little to no breathing room for half-assing anything. It really isn't an option. Combine that with being terrified of failure and that creates a lot of fear for a 20-year-old.
I love journalism. I really do. This is what I'm choosing to do with my life because I enjoy it. I also love the other parts of my (social) life that are hard to give up. Ultimately, I know that I don't have to give them up, but rather sacrifice some time and miss a few things. The Missourian is something I need to put a lot of time and effort into this semester. It's like missing a little bit of the movie when you leave to go pee. You're not going to miss the entire thing, you'll see the ending and you'll feel a lot better when you finally get up to go to bathroom. The sooner you get up, the better.
You can't avoid it forever. I can't either.
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